Hello everyone, I'm back again after a short break. I really love writing, but I'm worse than before at planning my speech. That's why I'll write another improvised piece. For those saying, "Man, this guy always starts like this," yes, I thought the same thing while writing. But this time there's an important difference: there's no trace of the depressive mood from my previous writings.

I've entered a phase where I've poured out my feelings and given myself a trial period, and this has taken me out of the "to hell with this world" mode. I guess being able to express what's bothering you to your target person, even just a little, can bring great relief. So listen to your brother Ahd and pour out your feelings before reaching the breaking point.

Now, we're all living through stressful times. We're wearing ourselves out with anxiety about the future and many uncertainties; mental stress exhausts us more than the difficulty of the tasks we do. I don't know how much you believe in yourself or what you're going through, but stop thinking of your job or pursuit as your only chance ? it will bring you great relief.

Don't go around with an "I'll quit my job and resign" mindset, but be able to say "enough" at the point where it negatively affects your life. I think the best way to continue with life is to know when to give up and try new things. Of course, this has a certain dosage, a certain balance; it's important not to miss it. Forcibly or stubbornly continuing something will wear you out excessively and take away your desire to live.

Although Ahd doesn't do it much, open up verbally to others, or you might get stuck in the swamp of negative emotions. Whether it's from my general caution or my reluctance to take risks, I don't know, but I make backup plans. Like "if this happens, I'll do that"... Make sure you have a backup plan, and even a backup for your backup. Otherwise, you might find yourself struggling with desperation all of a sudden.

I'll end my piece by telling you about a memory from my life and the time I felt most desperate. I graduated in June 2021. Everyone started calling and pressuring me as if they were looking me in the eye, saying, "So, did you get a job? When are you starting?" Ridiculous statements like "You became valedictorian for nothing, your efforts went to waste" were raining down like rain from the sky.

I couldn't stand it anymore and eagerly began my adventure of opening my business. The "AHD Academy" project was launched. I explained to many people again why I'm not still in academia or more specifically why I'm not at Hacettepe. At that time, I dedicated myself to the wrong point and got caught up in the idea of opening a second business. But the problem was, I had no money. I was earning, but it was barely enough for my debt and my work.

To be more specific, when I established my first business, I had consumed my capital. I hadn't received any registrations until 3 days before I had to pay the rent, and there was no one left from whom I could borrow. In a moment of hunger, Müslüm and I said, "Shall we order a pizza?" and placed an order. At that time, we registered the daughter of the brother who brought the order. The next day, as I was throwing out the trash, others came, and we closed the first month with a profit of 60 TL. Today I can't buy a döner with that, but that amount was very valuable to me. It made me believe that if you start on a path and don't give up, you won't be stranded; after all, that 60 TL was proof.

Returning to my second business adventure, at that time, the first place was covering its own expenses and leaving me about half the minimum wage. If I had been unscrupulous and paid my teachers poorly, I would have earned more, but reducing my bread rather than stealing labor still seems more honorable to me.

During that period, I was doing my master's degree, taking formation courses, and going to an English course. I had private lessons I attended, and I was also teaching at my business. Looking back, I was living like a robot; leaving home at 7 in the morning and coming home around 12, then falling asleep directly. Right at that time, I got into debt of about 18 thousand TL.

While saying "This will work out somehow," Türk Telekom defrauded me. First, they said, "Your internet commitment has ended, let's cancel it," then they charged a cancellation fee. They made me pay 2,780 TL with excuses like "The voice recording got lost." It still burns me up thinking about it, my curses are still with them, but this isn't really the place for that. Suddenly, I had to pay a debt of over 20 thousand, but my income was barely exceeding 2,500. I had about 4 months to pay it. No matter how you calculate it, you couldn't manage, you know.

I spent 4 days with 100 TL in my pocket, making pasta for myself. I craved many things, but I had to be patient. Again, while eating my sandwiches that I made for myself in the park, I said, "Should I pray a bit? The Lord who got me out when I had to pay rent in 3 days will get me out of this situation too," and I started to pray.

Ideas formed in my head, and on one hand, saying "Why don't I do more online camps?" I arranged some things and found a couple of private math lessons. I got out of that debt too. Afterward, I said, "These jobs are very stressful, the taxes and perception are exhausting. Should I turn to academia?" and somehow we've come to today.

Long story short: I wasn't extremely planned, I took too many risks. But in this process, I learned a lot and did a lot. I could say the only thing I didn't do was give up. While your life is in your hands, take risks, try, succeed, fail, but somehow set out on your path. Before old man Ahd gives you more advice, come to places where you start giving advice to him.

Stay healthy, goodbye, see you in our next article.