Hello friends! I'm back after a long break. I wish I could write more often, but my rusty pen doesn't quite allow it. Even though I act like I'm writing with an actual pen, It've now completed my lengthy introduction.

You probably dont't expect much from me, but for those readers who enjoy my occasional posts, lett's dive into a thought I mentioned in my last entry: "What would I change if I could go back 10 years?" I tried planning this post several times and came up with a few ideas, but in the end, I decided it would be better to just go with the flow. So here I am, writing as if I were talking to you.

If I were to go exactly 10 years back say, to 2015 I'd find myself in the middle of one of the most stressful times of my life: preparing for university entrance exams. With the mathematical knowledge and experience I have now, I believe I could've scored much higher in those exams like YGS and LYS, which rewarded real effort. Of course, my long-forgotten chemistry, biology, and physics knowledge might still have held me back a little.

Thinking about it, the first thing I'd want to change in 2015 would be how I managed exam stress. And socially speaking, I'd try not to come across as the grumpy, short-tempered, and hard-to-get-along-with version of myself I used to be.

If I had the chance to reconnect with the friends I haven't seen since graduation, I'd make an effort to know them better. Back when I had no real responsibilities, I wish I had spent more time enjoying myself. I had tightened up so much that I became hesitant to even go outside. Now I'm used to staying home, but back then I had more energy if I could go back, I'm sure I'd use that energy more actively.

I'd definitely undo one regret: quitting sports. Even though I wasn't a great athlete, I really enjoyed my time doing Taekwondo.

I was always a tech nerd, but back then I had no interest in programming. Even though it was a pre-AI era and much tougher, I would still go back and focus on software instead of math. I've already studied mathematics once why repeat the same journey?

This may sound cliché, but yes, I would invest in crypto and the stock market. Especially in dollars or gold I'd definitely try to save. Back when everything was so cheap and I had some money, I probably wouldn't even bother cutting back on food and fun.

So far, my regrets are quite general, I know. But the whole idea is so unrealistic that I might as well throw in something interesting or even funny.

The younger and more inexperienced you are, the easier it is to love and be loved. If I were back in that time, I'd give more importance to my love life, which I used to avoid under the excuse of "not being settled yet." I'd express my feelings, even to someone I didn?t have the courage to approach back then.

It's been around eight years, and it's long past. Even if you push me, I'm not going to go into any more detail. And if, by any chance, the person who ends up in my life one day reads this, please know it's all theoretical no need for drama. (Yes, the one likely to get in trouble for this post is me.)

Joking aside, if I had the chance to go back, I'd also want to overcome my fear of arguments and emotional drama.

As for my career, I would've either chosen to become a public servant much earlier or taken the risk to go abroad and try something bolder maybe an international job. Traveling the world and seeing new places without going broke would've been great.

Honestly, even if you could go back just one month with the mindset you have today, you could make a huge difference in your life. Ten years is a long time and since it would land me right before university, itt'd be a golden opportunity. Sure, It'd still have to retake things like the drivert's license test that traumatized me, but armed with knowledge and experience, everything would be much easier.

I know I sound like an old man, but even if you fix all your past "what ifs," there will always be new ones. So instead of chasing impossible dreams, just focus on whatt's ahead. Life isnt't slow enough to move forward by looking back, nor fast enough to only focus on the future. Everything has its pace and it's calibrated perfectly for the present.

And with that, I end this not-so-perfect piece. I hope to see you again soon. Stay well and take care!